I have no idea why we were so closed last time, we used to sleep together and smoke together. We get to know each other too much. We know too much. sometimes what we see may not what we wants because it was such a bizarre when were having mixed feeling. they started to do things behind me, talked about me. I never hurt you before, why would you hurt me somemore back stabbing and making smile face in front of me.
I dont want what happened in secondary school happens here again. Come on we are grown up , im 23 and you all are 21st. I tried so hard to 'forge' into your age and play with you.
Im straight, i mean when i talk. I dont like to twist here and there I like straight to the point and I dont like to make fun around because it is wasting time. I may not look as good as you, tall, good looking, good sense of humour. I just dont have that all, what I good at was pointing what wrong you have done.
I dont like when you cover things you couldnt do with tons of reasons. and you have thousand reasons to work for the one who need you the most.
For now onward I will never care what you do because I dont want to get hurt because of your stubbornness. I will just be normal and do what I like and since you will never learn to apology i dont think there are much i can help you.
Please be reminded that I help you alot even though it was not part of my assignment. and im not obligated to. and u did paid back with these sohai calling for my name.
and for that bitch, you talk like you forget everything, but u didnt. and I know that very well.
FUCK YOU
Saturday, June 21, 2014
Friends
In life, friends are just people who are inseparable from us. They are the one stands for us when we need them and we also do the same for them. Somehow , my recent experience doesnt make me feeling good. Im in university now and it is located quite desert from the town. There made friends and I thought I just thought they are just a normal friend and would not take much part of my life. Somehow they do, they become part of my daily life. We played, we laughed, we take meals together.
The first best friend I thought I got was Nick, we have so much in common. Since I moved out from hostel so I would travel from my place to hostel and find him to play. Normally we would go out together and have fun outside with some friends he invited.
Time passed, our relationship becomes intense, because he thought my intention was different. but im not , i just want someone to accompany me when im boring and lonely. that sounds very legit what thats what friends are for. I still vividly remember it happened last Christmas, i ask him out but he refused but ended up he is in the house next row of mine having gift exchange. I asked and he reply he dont have to report to anyone including him mom what and where he will be. From bottom of my heart was like what the hell was he thinking. I was just asking since he said dont want go anywhere else why he was there for the gift exchange.
Yes, people tend to forget what have you done to them and will remember what you did wrong. Didnt he remember that I went all the way from SP to Klang for her grandma? that time he was having midsem on the next day and im sure he will skip it and take bus back Klang. Since I finished my CA so im free. So I fetch him down and back on the same day. I was tired and we stopped by Ipoh for famous Sprout Chicken.
One day he needs back Kangsar and he asked if I can borrow him car. and i said yes after a short while because he is my best friend and i believe in him.
Time passed and I was not happy since then, why would he treated me in that way? Honesty i did not mean anything I just want to be friend. a good one. I will never say things that hurt my friends. but u did. I thought I should take the 1st step to mend back our relationship but I dont think it was a success.
The first best friend I thought I got was Nick, we have so much in common. Since I moved out from hostel so I would travel from my place to hostel and find him to play. Normally we would go out together and have fun outside with some friends he invited.
Time passed, our relationship becomes intense, because he thought my intention was different. but im not , i just want someone to accompany me when im boring and lonely. that sounds very legit what thats what friends are for. I still vividly remember it happened last Christmas, i ask him out but he refused but ended up he is in the house next row of mine having gift exchange. I asked and he reply he dont have to report to anyone including him mom what and where he will be. From bottom of my heart was like what the hell was he thinking. I was just asking since he said dont want go anywhere else why he was there for the gift exchange.
Yes, people tend to forget what have you done to them and will remember what you did wrong. Didnt he remember that I went all the way from SP to Klang for her grandma? that time he was having midsem on the next day and im sure he will skip it and take bus back Klang. Since I finished my CA so im free. So I fetch him down and back on the same day. I was tired and we stopped by Ipoh for famous Sprout Chicken.
One day he needs back Kangsar and he asked if I can borrow him car. and i said yes after a short while because he is my best friend and i believe in him.
Time passed and I was not happy since then, why would he treated me in that way? Honesty i did not mean anything I just want to be friend. a good one. I will never say things that hurt my friends. but u did. I thought I should take the 1st step to mend back our relationship but I dont think it was a success.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
I`m BACK
I think I have months not writing any blogs,either my this blog or my food blog. Because I got really busy out there but I dont know know what were I busying at.
My term2 exam has passed and my result did not meet up my expectation like what I had promised to myself when I start enrolled into this school.
The result was bad but not that bad bad. So it was about the average and Im ranking 3 out of 6 in the class. Pretty shame huh for that? When I was in 1st sem, my result pretty nice and I was ranking 2nd out of 8 or 10/ I cant remember because they came and withdraw for their very personal matter.
I know the reason why my result has been dropped . It was my comfort zone. Well, I got good result for my 1st sem and gone over confident over my new chapters so here I am, bad result student.
Also alot of things get me distracted, like the food here.
Just one single factor I can loosen myself out.
I will try to make myself driving out to town just to have meal while this place foods are provided when we paid for the fees.
Secondly, I was not in the mood. When people come and go, we learn to get closer with others whom we thought will be staying.
So we stay together.
When we knew that, the person close with you is leaving
the feeling is sucks
because when you know have no others else.
Anyhow, I went through this and now Im back in track
and my midterm is next week,
just a few days after,
so I think I better start catching up with my subjects.
My term2 exam has passed and my result did not meet up my expectation like what I had promised to myself when I start enrolled into this school.
The result was bad but not that bad bad. So it was about the average and Im ranking 3 out of 6 in the class. Pretty shame huh for that? When I was in 1st sem, my result pretty nice and I was ranking 2nd out of 8 or 10/ I cant remember because they came and withdraw for their very personal matter.
I know the reason why my result has been dropped . It was my comfort zone. Well, I got good result for my 1st sem and gone over confident over my new chapters so here I am, bad result student.
Also alot of things get me distracted, like the food here.
Just one single factor I can loosen myself out.
I will try to make myself driving out to town just to have meal while this place foods are provided when we paid for the fees.
Secondly, I was not in the mood. When people come and go, we learn to get closer with others whom we thought will be staying.
So we stay together.
When we knew that, the person close with you is leaving
the feeling is sucks
because when you know have no others else.
Anyhow, I went through this and now Im back in track
and my midterm is next week,
just a few days after,
so I think I better start catching up with my subjects.
Friday, June 8, 2012
it`s another morning
like usual I had a deep sleep in the evening and woke up in the middle of the nite.
and i cant fall asleep because im fully charged.
time flies, and i had been almost half year im in Aimst.
had the first term and result was out and it was fabulous for me because im getting good result. im having 3.67 out of 4.
but i dont think that`s enough because im more capable than that
thinking of getting any gift or what from my brother , but unfortunate no.
just a short message saying good.
well well well , that`s been happening since i was child. no fancy fancy thing because my family cant afford but i wanted it badly so.........just go to sleep and forget about it
but i din pampered myself with some good food for the having the good result.
now , it`s the 2nd sem .
have to focus on the newscasting which is the assignment of the english class.
downloaded abode after effect and some tutorial video
hopefully i can do something better than other`s group and impress the judges.
argh. it`s 4 30 in the morning and 3 weeks passed after i had the 2 weeks off and im still nothing because i didnt study at all except just going to class like usual.
i have been slow down lately, and i dont know why?
maybe again i fall into my comfort zone.
i think that`s all for now am im going to finish up my maths . how good if i have the 63 bit pc so that i can finish the after effect too.
nite nite. / morning./ have a good day
and i cant fall asleep because im fully charged.
time flies, and i had been almost half year im in Aimst.
had the first term and result was out and it was fabulous for me because im getting good result. im having 3.67 out of 4.
but i dont think that`s enough because im more capable than that
thinking of getting any gift or what from my brother , but unfortunate no.
just a short message saying good.
well well well , that`s been happening since i was child. no fancy fancy thing because my family cant afford but i wanted it badly so.........just go to sleep and forget about it
but i din pampered myself with some good food for the having the good result.
now , it`s the 2nd sem .
have to focus on the newscasting which is the assignment of the english class.
downloaded abode after effect and some tutorial video
hopefully i can do something better than other`s group and impress the judges.
argh. it`s 4 30 in the morning and 3 weeks passed after i had the 2 weeks off and im still nothing because i didnt study at all except just going to class like usual.
i have been slow down lately, and i dont know why?
maybe again i fall into my comfort zone.
i think that`s all for now am im going to finish up my maths . how good if i have the 63 bit pc so that i can finish the after effect too.
nite nite. / morning./ have a good day
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Aimst
It has been a quarter I been here. (AIMST).
I never knew that I have the chance of persuing a higher degree of my education.
Initially I took STPM which I spent one and a half of the year,
deeply screen though the time I spent , I know Im not a good boy
because my result has never been gone so good.
and Yet I keep spending money on tuition , transport to center and other expenses
Rewinding back the time, I found that I have grown up not in a mean of height but maturity.
I`ve seen alot , especially time I worked.
You will never gain something unless you make sacrifices.
Another one year gone after I had my STPM, I make up my mind to study.
So that I can get a better offer from a company.
My background told me that, only with study
you will only have a brighter future
and Insurance.
No one wants to be working for others with low pay.
So I came across Utar, perhaps I can take foundation there
since the tuition fees is cheap enough.
and them I told my friend, King.
" You think it`s cheap? No way! I will let you know what is really call cheap. "
and here I am. In AIMST.
I got scholarship for my foundation ( because I don`t acquire their standard to enter degree year so I have to spend another 1 year for my foundation ).
Everything is fine here except the accommodation.
For your information, the catering here is Indian company.
and guess what is their specialty?
Answer is Curry.
I was like ''huh??? curry . Gonna like experience fire in the holes all the time ''
and one more thing is the hostel.
Well, foundation year has to spend the days and nights with another 3 more person in a room.
Which means that we have 4 in a room which is small.
This is not the problem yet, the main concern is no one is taking responsibility in a house.
(our is apartment which has3 rooms ).
OMFG, living with these kids are damn annoying.
They like never sleep and make alot of noise during midnight the time you in deep sleep.
They sing, laugh and eat , doing parkour and etc.
the worst is they doing all these during the night before my Mid Term Exam.
I know , they are born with golden spoon.
Unlike me, they can do whatever they like because they are spoilt.
I think that`s all from me tonight.
Hope it gonna be a long nite because I took pill = - = .
not feeling well
Nite yaw.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Tada ....here i am, a totally new environment
hi everyone i`m back.
it`s another stage of my journey.
after i left genting i went to a totally new n strange environment------insurance
i`m now working with an outsource company that doing for hong leong assurance
it`s not easy to stay or work at here. because i dont have anything to support myself
luckily i still got some of the saving that i did in genting and miraculously that i got first case within few week n i`m still not yet on contract.
amazing isnt it?
well.....not really.
perhaps just a coincidence.
but thank god for giving me such chance so that i can survive..
for the starting i felt so scare to this place. all people are using branded thing n me the poor guy came into
it might sound close to u but not me. gucci , mont blanc , Lv and etc.
their car is like WOW........
merz n ferrari n etc......while i`m just driving an old car.
ironic isnt ?
sure of course when u are in a new place they will treat u nicely n try to pursuit u
and then when it`s done.
"BOOM" here come the fire dragon..............
you will be on fire and slave for the Satan.
i`m so scared.....scared i cant meet up the requirement
i tried so hard to get it done.
BUT they will never see what have u done.
they JUST want the RESULT but not the PROCESS
somehow the Lion will dance on that u didnt show the process.
this is the most headache
yes, in this industry really can earn alot n can meet alot of people
but the system in this team is really sucks.
no team working n everything is like randomly arrange
there are room of improvement for those who gonna learn the leadership as it aint easy,
no matter how many books u read it just a guidance .
u cant make any sense with what u read to others.
u gonna be ur true self.
if u are having affair please dont 'grumble' us in.
we are just a normal worker or agent or a slave.
now i`m dont have any source to do cold call
so please dont force me!!!! (i`m trying be nice to myself)
im not type of ppl that if force me i will give result,
the harder u force me the more repellent i am.
i know u are in pressure so am i or we...because u are channel-ing them to us!!!
FUCK YOU
i m just damn fucking hate this feeling
please dont compare we with others or what u want us be,
because WE ARE WHO WE ARE
please dont talk about our family,our privacy, our ex-job.
we are not doing comparison .
please i`m begging u.
i just want to be normal.
even just driving an old car.
it doesnt matter,
because i`m happy.
I`M SEEKING FOR HAPPINESS BUT NOT STREES-NESS.
it`s another stage of my journey.
after i left genting i went to a totally new n strange environment------insurance
i`m now working with an outsource company that doing for hong leong assurance
it`s not easy to stay or work at here. because i dont have anything to support myself
luckily i still got some of the saving that i did in genting and miraculously that i got first case within few week n i`m still not yet on contract.
amazing isnt it?
well.....not really.
perhaps just a coincidence.
but thank god for giving me such chance so that i can survive..
for the starting i felt so scare to this place. all people are using branded thing n me the poor guy came into
it might sound close to u but not me. gucci , mont blanc , Lv and etc.
their car is like WOW........
merz n ferrari n etc......while i`m just driving an old car.
ironic isnt ?
sure of course when u are in a new place they will treat u nicely n try to pursuit u
and then when it`s done.
"BOOM" here come the fire dragon..............
you will be on fire and slave for the Satan.
i`m so scared.....scared i cant meet up the requirement
i tried so hard to get it done.
BUT they will never see what have u done.
they JUST want the RESULT but not the PROCESS
somehow the Lion will dance on that u didnt show the process.
this is the most headache
yes, in this industry really can earn alot n can meet alot of people
but the system in this team is really sucks.
no team working n everything is like randomly arrange
there are room of improvement for those who gonna learn the leadership as it aint easy,
no matter how many books u read it just a guidance .
u cant make any sense with what u read to others.
u gonna be ur true self.
if u are having affair please dont 'grumble' us in.
we are just a normal worker or agent or a slave.
now i`m dont have any source to do cold call
so please dont force me!!!! (i`m trying be nice to myself)
im not type of ppl that if force me i will give result,
the harder u force me the more repellent i am.
i know u are in pressure so am i or we...because u are channel-ing them to us!!!
FUCK YOU
i m just damn fucking hate this feeling
please dont compare we with others or what u want us be,
because WE ARE WHO WE ARE
please dont talk about our family,our privacy, our ex-job.
we are not doing comparison .
please i`m begging u.
i just want to be normal.
even just driving an old car.
it doesnt matter,
because i`m happy.
I`M SEEKING FOR HAPPINESS BUT NOT STREES-NESS.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
it`s my another journey of my life
been quitting genting for some time. it`s about 3 months,
it`s been a fabulous experience for me when i was there
just a normal workplace but the different is u work with different people
should understand that such big comp of course alot of people from other part of the world to join.
2 months past and i cant stand the environment anymore,
i cant sleep well due to i`m different shift with my roomates.
everytime they open the door i`ll sure open up my eyes and wondering who will be the one entering
though i know is them but i`m just cant stay them close.
ouch! made the decision to leave but since it`s already second months plus why not finish it and leave on 3rd month
so finally i left genting for the 3rd months
and i met Belle.
i dont know why maybe it` the faith or the destiny i found her
she brought me into another new industry which i hated which is the insurance
so by that time i ma like give it a try seek what is it all about
so i begin to start working after i two week rested at home
it`s located at uptown. for me it`s totally a stranger
because i never been to Pj except one U n the curve
so everyday i took train to kelana jaya station.
everyday i woke up at 4.30 in the morning and get the earliest train which is on 5.13 am
reach kelana jaya about 7.15. it took almost 2 hours.
it`s really exhausted especially if i late sleep.
then i started to do what i learn
and finally i done it!
amazing,
thanks alot to my teacher.
after all .....
i understand that everything or whatever exists in this world has their very own meaning.
insurance here is not a cheating thing.
it`s really about the helping thing
because insurance is something like gathering the power form the people and help the with unfortunate destiny.
it`s something that everyone should buy is medical card.
for myself is an example.
it could be very handful when u need it as it`s cheap also.
this career also has brought me the thing i want
which is my future.
i knew my interest - banking n finance line
i got no offer from any UNI and i`m not surprise to hear it because i`m prepared
so i`m gonna to stay focus in the career that i`m doing now and wait for the time to come
so gambateh neh
very soon, my birthday will be coming
really hope my friends will celebrate with me.
i dont need the grand one.
i just want people stay with me and share the joy with me
it`s my big day and i dont want it be alone celebrate
it falls on saturday.
it`s really late nite. good nite
it`s been a fabulous experience for me when i was there
just a normal workplace but the different is u work with different people
should understand that such big comp of course alot of people from other part of the world to join.
2 months past and i cant stand the environment anymore,
i cant sleep well due to i`m different shift with my roomates.
everytime they open the door i`ll sure open up my eyes and wondering who will be the one entering
though i know is them but i`m just cant stay them close.
ouch! made the decision to leave but since it`s already second months plus why not finish it and leave on 3rd month
so finally i left genting for the 3rd months
and i met Belle.
i dont know why maybe it` the faith or the destiny i found her
she brought me into another new industry which i hated which is the insurance
so by that time i ma like give it a try seek what is it all about
so i begin to start working after i two week rested at home
it`s located at uptown. for me it`s totally a stranger
because i never been to Pj except one U n the curve
so everyday i took train to kelana jaya station.
everyday i woke up at 4.30 in the morning and get the earliest train which is on 5.13 am
reach kelana jaya about 7.15. it took almost 2 hours.
it`s really exhausted especially if i late sleep.
then i started to do what i learn
and finally i done it!
amazing,
thanks alot to my teacher.
after all .....
i understand that everything or whatever exists in this world has their very own meaning.
insurance here is not a cheating thing.
it`s really about the helping thing
because insurance is something like gathering the power form the people and help the with unfortunate destiny.
it`s something that everyone should buy is medical card.
for myself is an example.
it could be very handful when u need it as it`s cheap also.
this career also has brought me the thing i want
which is my future.
i knew my interest - banking n finance line
i got no offer from any UNI and i`m not surprise to hear it because i`m prepared
so i`m gonna to stay focus in the career that i`m doing now and wait for the time to come
so gambateh neh
very soon, my birthday will be coming
really hope my friends will celebrate with me.
i dont need the grand one.
i just want people stay with me and share the joy with me
it`s my big day and i dont want it be alone celebrate
it falls on saturday.
it`s really late nite. good nite
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