Does it that easy?

Life is not easy. Not that calm and peace, not like coherent waves like-laser. The moment u at the top of the world , u will also remain stationary at the ground in the next second. Nothing is fixed, you wont get high and never get down. Even stocks also the same. It raises, u earn it. dropped? You lost. That`s it….nothing so matter….y feel so hard on that? When u are up high, u feel like u are surrounding by the people and friends. When u are down u felt like nothing. Like all your best friends have left u. actually they are not. They are always there for u. who said want to leave u? no one would. You are just too sweet to be abandoned. Sharing will only make u into a better person. No only allowing u alone to talk. No one wants that way either than i. being extremist is not wrong but just not the appropriate way. Yea, I don’t have the chance to critic about it. so? As long i`m free, i`m free to do anything I like. The same thing u practice doesn’t means it always right. Because only u think it is right. What if others also thinking the opposite? Does it already become a question mark for you to think that what u have been doing is  right or not? People doesn’t talk to you because they know u never will want to know about it and u don’t either bother pun. And that is so wrong because in that way u will never change. A risky stuff will make the one who loves u sad because perhaps one day an accident might turn into. No one knows the future ahead us. You are you . not others, u don’t know what are others doing or thinking. The pedal might be accidentally stepped. And what gonna happen? Even old hands also make mistakes. You might just upset those who really care you. Yes , u might never know this. Either u know or not, it`s gonna be a varnish because u don’t really realize the existence of it. no one will blame you for nothing, they are just saying . just want u be better. If u cant accept it. then just forget about it. perhaps the day will come later, then only u know. no one would like to point a gun to someone just to ask them to follow whatever he or she asks. Think about it. no one is forcing u. 

Another new story (not really, haha)

Been knowing for almost 8 years ,just know the existence of him only, each of us know nothing about us and what we know is just the name and the nickname of us only. Soon , we started to get closer, it was started by me. I can stand when someone is showing off (believe me, he`s not) but I just sensed  it. I has nothing to do with him. It was me. Then we fight and been through many things and at last that made us closer. As close as brothers. Since then , we got a lot of things to talk of, but until then I heard something that I really don’t want to know that is “depends on the knowledge” . and from then I know that how he differentiate people from. That is how they talk and behavior. When he found out that you don’t really have the knowledge , he will definitely fight you and saying what you said is false. That`s really hurt, I should know that, someone will get hurt one day when he changed. I just cant believe that i`m just one of them. So sorry to say that, not I don’t want to support you. Just you don’t want only. You are the one who don’t want to listen to me. Yes, I`m kinda oaf so? It just me ok? I will never pretend to be someone else just want to cover up .  Unfortunately the day came, I fight with him again and again, he just don’t want to accept. Fine, it has nothing to do with me right? What I can do is just giving the reason only, he`s the one who do the decision to take it or not. I cant force him with a gun and asking him to follow mine. That`s insane. This is not left 4 dead or what battlefield, it`s just reality. I really cant accept it. Many times of ‘game over’  have been said but it just don’t work. He melted me, (sounds gay, haha, but i`m not) the friendship between him and me like the ionic bond, really need higher temperature to break. Perhaps the day will come just don’t know when. Now I know that , don’t ever expect him something I wish for because I know he changed, he wont do it for me. I think I really treat him as my real brothers but he just take it easy, I have nothing to say about that, in the mean time he also always saying who` s good la….really mean to him la…..while he`s not doing the same to me? Aiksss……I think I really get into jealousy already, why should i? I shouldn’t right? Dilemma ………but I still love him. Haha ^^

I would like to say that, you are the one who drive to experience, not others. YET, THERE ARE MANY PEOPLE I CLOSE TO BUT STILL DON’T UNDERSTAND THEM. HOW PATHETIC ISN`T IT?

Someone you know said that you know him very much is actually not really. Look at him so hard and rigid but who knows that he can be destroy by a flower? Cant really say much because I also not knowing that much. Not knowing that they both are that good at pretend. Please don’t pretend to be others because you just wasting who you are. Is it really worth for you to change? I know you are at her side, you would do anything including asking you to eat shit because for you, even shit she also can cook very well. I know that. I wont blame you two because I don’t have to. Even if I had also no point because that doesn’t give effect to you.

If you did something is just want to let others to see, or just want erase his or her bad image about you on purposely, you are wrong. Because people can see that you are pretending. Cant deny that i`m really a good observant. I sees but don’t talk doesn’t mean i`m a dummy.