Been knowing for almost 8 years ,just know the existence of him only, each of us know nothing about us and what we know is just the name and the nickname of us only. Soon , we started to get closer, it was started by me. I can stand when someone is showing off (believe me, he`s not) but I just sensed it. I has nothing to do with him. It was me. Then we fight and been through many things and at last that made us closer. As close as brothers. Since then , we got a lot of things to talk of, but until then I heard something that I really don’t want to know that is “depends on the knowledge” . and from then I know that how he differentiate people from. That is how they talk and behavior. When he found out that you don’t really have the knowledge , he will definitely fight you and saying what you said is false. That`s really hurt, I should know that, someone will get hurt one day when he changed. I just cant believe that i`m just one of them. So sorry to say that, not I don’t want to support you. Just you don’t want only. You are the one who don’t want to listen to me. Yes, I`m kinda oaf so? It just me ok? I will never pretend to be someone else just want to cover up . Unfortunately the day came, I fight with him again and again, he just don’t want to accept. Fine, it has nothing to do with me right? What I can do is just giving the reason only, he`s the one who do the decision to take it or not. I cant force him with a gun and asking him to follow mine. That`s insane. This is not left 4 dead or what battlefield, it`s just reality. I really cant accept it. Many times of ‘game over’ have been said but it just don’t work. He melted me, (sounds gay, haha, but i`m not) the friendship between him and me like the ionic bond, really need higher temperature to break. Perhaps the day will come just don’t know when. Now I know that , don’t ever expect him something I wish for because I know he changed, he wont do it for me. I think I really treat him as my real brothers but he just take it easy, I have nothing to say about that, in the mean time he also always saying who` s good la….really mean to him la…..while he`s not doing the same to me? Aiksss……I think I really get into jealousy already, why should i? I shouldn’t right? Dilemma ………but I still love him. Haha ^^
I would like to say that, you are the one who drive to experience, not others. YET, THERE ARE MANY PEOPLE I CLOSE TO BUT STILL DON’T UNDERSTAND THEM. HOW PATHETIC ISN`T IT?
Someone you know said that you know him very much is actually not really. Look at him so hard and rigid but who knows that he can be destroy by a flower? Cant really say much because I also not knowing that much. Not knowing that they both are that good at pretend. Please don’t pretend to be others because you just wasting who you are. Is it really worth for you to change? I know you are at her side, you would do anything including asking you to eat shit because for you, even shit she also can cook very well. I know that. I wont blame you two because I don’t have to. Even if I had also no point because that doesn’t give effect to you.
If you did something is just want to let others to see, or just want erase his or her bad image about you on purposely, you are wrong. Because people can see that you are pretending. Cant deny that i`m really a good observant. I sees but don’t talk doesn’t mean i`m a dummy.
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