Tada ....here i am, a totally new environment

hi everyone i`m back.
it`s another stage of my journey.
after i left genting i went to a totally new n strange environment------insurance
i`m now working with an outsource company that doing for hong leong assurance

it`s not easy to stay or work at here. because i dont have anything to support myself
luckily i still got some of the saving that i did in genting and miraculously that i got first case within few week n i`m still not yet on contract.

amazing isnt it?
well.....not really.
perhaps just a coincidence.
but thank god for giving me such chance so that i can survive..

for the starting i felt so scare to this place. all people are using branded thing n me the poor guy came into
it might sound close to u but not me. gucci , mont blanc , Lv and etc.

their car is like WOW........
merz n ferrari n etc......while i`m just driving an old car.
ironic isnt ?

sure of course when u are in a new place they will treat u nicely n try to pursuit u
and then when it`s done.
"BOOM" here come the fire dragon..............
you will be on fire and slave for the Satan.

i`m so scared.....scared i cant meet up the requirement

i tried so hard to get it done.
BUT they will never see what have u done.
they JUST want the RESULT but not the PROCESS
somehow the Lion will dance on that u didnt show the process.
this is the most headache

yes, in this industry really can earn alot n can meet alot of people
but the system in this team is really sucks.
no team working n everything is like randomly arrange
there are room of improvement for those who gonna learn the leadership as it aint  easy,
no matter how many books u read it just a guidance .
u cant make any sense with what u read to others.
u gonna be ur true self.

if u are having affair please dont 'grumble' us in.
we are just a normal worker or agent or a slave.

now i`m dont have any source to do cold call
so please dont force me!!!! (i`m trying be nice to myself)
im not type of ppl that if force me i will give result,
the harder u force me the more repellent i am.

i know u are in pressure so am i or we...because u are channel-ing them to us!!!
FUCK YOU
i m just damn fucking hate this feeling

please dont compare we with others or what u want us be,
because WE ARE WHO WE ARE
please dont talk about our family,our privacy, our ex-job.
we are not doing comparison .
please i`m begging u.
i just want to be normal.
even just driving an old car.
it doesnt matter,
because i`m happy.
I`M SEEKING FOR HAPPINESS BUT NOT STREES-NESS.

it`s my another journey of my life

been quitting genting for some time. it`s about 3 months,
it`s been a fabulous experience for me when i was there
just a normal workplace but the different is u work with different people
should understand that such big comp of course alot of people from other part of the world to join.

2 months past and i cant stand the environment anymore,
i cant sleep well due to i`m different shift with my roomates.
everytime they open the door i`ll sure open up my eyes and wondering who will be the one entering
though i know is them but i`m just cant stay them close.

ouch! made the decision to leave but since it`s already second months plus why not finish it and leave on 3rd month

so finally i left genting for the 3rd months

and  i met Belle.
i dont know why maybe it` the faith or the destiny i found her
she brought me into another new industry which i hated which is the insurance

so by that time i ma like give it a try seek what is it all about
so i begin to start working after i two week rested at home
it`s located at uptown. for me it`s totally a stranger
because i never been to Pj except one U n the curve
so everyday i took train to kelana jaya station.
everyday i woke up at 4.30 in the morning and get the earliest train which is on 5.13 am
reach kelana jaya about 7.15. it took almost 2 hours.
it`s really exhausted especially if i late sleep.
then i started to do what i learn

and finally i done it!
amazing,
thanks alot to my teacher.

after all .....
i understand that everything or whatever exists in this world has their very own meaning.
insurance here is not a cheating thing.
it`s really about the helping thing
because insurance is something like gathering the power form the people and help the with unfortunate destiny.

it`s something that everyone should buy is medical card.
for myself is an example.
it could be very handful when u need it as it`s cheap also.

this career also has brought me the thing i want
which is my future.
i knew my interest - banking n finance line

i got no offer from any UNI and i`m not surprise to hear it because i`m prepared
so i`m gonna to stay focus in the career that i`m doing now and wait for the time to come
so gambateh neh

very soon, my birthday will be coming
really hope my friends will celebrate with me.
i dont need the grand one.
i just want people stay with me and share the joy with me
it`s my big day and i dont want it be alone celebrate
it falls on saturday.

it`s really late nite. good nite

back from work

about 2 months i`ve been there

i just couldnt stop thinking of leaving.

i couldnt stand with those people who are great pretender 

great liar

they are not co-operative at all

i just have them as much as i hate cockroach

i just want to step on them like i stepped on cockroach

when i heard i got chance to interview and move to another new place

i was so happy but until now still no news

it`s good be back home.

i love my bed 

i love my mom

i love my dad

i love my grandma

and i miss them so much

owhhh......

i have never been like this before

i just miss them so much

they love, their caring

everything is so meaningful for me

without these 

there would no be me today

and i will

try to fulfill whatever they want

while they still here.

just like what they did when i was small.

it`s so wonderful be home, 

eat what she cooked 

especially her soup.

oh man......just too sentimental

few drops of tears have just dropped

i`m pretty sure i`ll cry again when i`m back to that holly crap place.

FUCK U GM!

what provide first class hospitality 

employees are living in 3rd class place!

working with great pretender!

if anyone of u like to see faces(feces) of people

may try work there. 

i never like this before

been a rough week i struggling  and finally i`m home
i have never been like this so wanting to go home
i`m not a type like to stay at home
but i changed.
now i like to go home because home is the most comfortable place.
i like see my parents and grandma
i love them alot
especially my grandma
i keep crying for her
for everything she did to me
for time she care me when i was small
she is so precious
i dont want to lose her
i love her very much
i hope the day not coming so fast
i still want to stay with her
i dont want to apart from her
i just dont want to.
can we reverse the time?
i wish i could
i wish to get back to childhood
so that i can spend time with her
stay with her
and cook for me when i get back from school.
i just back from her place and i wanted to hug her
because i keep crying
but she didnt see because i was in the room
i really want to tell her that i miss her alot
and i can even stop thinking of her for a single minute
but i dont have the courage,
shame of myself
i cant imagine if i lost her one day
i cant
i really love u grandma.

no Happy working

been working for almost a month since 23rd of dec until now
and got sick yet not recovered
and got transferred to another department.
i`m working as GSA (guest service assistant) at membership services
but got transferred to GGM (general gaming marketing) i guess i didnt write it wrong
everything was so smooth at membership services until i got transferred to ggm
i met a bitch. it`s just a week.
how could i remember all the things and procedure
so many events
and i worked at nite shift
how could i encounter that kind of problem which only occur at morning?
how miserable u ar bitch?
shoot me front of customer , phone over the counter and gossip about me
saying i look like monster ,
are u pretty?
no! u look ugly at all, ur voice like ur throat is cracking, and ur elephant leg look so yucks
ur hand look so 'wrinkles'
i also wonder how come ppl like u got ppl flirt with.
especially all those pretending job, act cute,
eww......look like a chicken talking....

for now, i dont care what u talked and what u did.
i just want my salary.
wont care u shout at me anymore
treat u like singing
opps no, cant treat u like singing because ur voice is like the broken stereo.
like a chicken being choked that would be nice!
bitchy WENDY NG