i never like this before

been a rough week i struggling  and finally i`m home
i have never been like this so wanting to go home
i`m not a type like to stay at home
but i changed.
now i like to go home because home is the most comfortable place.
i like see my parents and grandma
i love them alot
especially my grandma
i keep crying for her
for everything she did to me
for time she care me when i was small
she is so precious
i dont want to lose her
i love her very much
i hope the day not coming so fast
i still want to stay with her
i dont want to apart from her
i just dont want to.
can we reverse the time?
i wish i could
i wish to get back to childhood
so that i can spend time with her
stay with her
and cook for me when i get back from school.
i just back from her place and i wanted to hug her
because i keep crying
but she didnt see because i was in the room
i really want to tell her that i miss her alot
and i can even stop thinking of her for a single minute
but i dont have the courage,
shame of myself
i cant imagine if i lost her one day
i cant
i really love u grandma.

no Happy working

been working for almost a month since 23rd of dec until now
and got sick yet not recovered
and got transferred to another department.
i`m working as GSA (guest service assistant) at membership services
but got transferred to GGM (general gaming marketing) i guess i didnt write it wrong
everything was so smooth at membership services until i got transferred to ggm
i met a bitch. it`s just a week.
how could i remember all the things and procedure
so many events
and i worked at nite shift
how could i encounter that kind of problem which only occur at morning?
how miserable u ar bitch?
shoot me front of customer , phone over the counter and gossip about me
saying i look like monster ,
are u pretty?
no! u look ugly at all, ur voice like ur throat is cracking, and ur elephant leg look so yucks
ur hand look so 'wrinkles'
i also wonder how come ppl like u got ppl flirt with.
especially all those pretending job, act cute,
eww......look like a chicken talking....

for now, i dont care what u talked and what u did.
i just want my salary.
wont care u shout at me anymore
treat u like singing
opps no, cant treat u like singing because ur voice is like the broken stereo.
like a chicken being choked that would be nice!
bitchy WENDY NG