Hohoho…how pathetic am I now….after spending 1000+ for the first month then now moaning for money again….how stupid I am…..celebrating birthday with friends almost everytime…pay that and that and that…..then overspent again…the next month really need to eat wind already…or during the christmas just go into the church and get some food….i know i`m repeating again and again….but I just couldn’t forget….the other day one friend birthday again and what …I also went there and help them celebrate… so in the end pay money for the cake and the food that urself ordered….then the money for the gift….i just couldn’t forget that…..everytime why i`m paying gift for others but not for me? How pathetic….all the money I spent , these above also ‘contribute’ a lot….so now? I`m totally broke even buy a 30 prepaid card also not affordable….so now I have planned …just sit in the house and eat whatever they buy….quiting all outing. And facing my pc……because I don’t have to pay electrical bill also….i just help them pay…hahaha…I missed freedom….dont have to think so much…beside work then go back rest…don’t even need to think single thing…but what to do ? need study…lost the source of freedom and also money…being tied up….and i`m lost in my way now…so I just carry on what am I doing now….if in the end if I got a flying colour then I will proceed on to the next stage …and I getting close again to my dream …if din get good result…the need come out to petaling street college already….so I would step out from my house to a place name wisma genting….if I could la….what i`m hoping now is …everything is going smooth and I don’t have to worry anymore.