This Quote is one of my favourite.

有相聚，就有離別，人生的百轉千迴中，一直佈滿了一個又一個車站。我們都是旅人，既然要去的終站是不一樣的，只好在這裡分手。抹乾眼淚，我走我的路，如果 你曾是那麼值得愛，我會永遠懷念你，謝謝你陪我走一程。如果你不值得，我會把你抖落，當作從來沒有認識你，你是我年少無知所犯下的最愚蠢的錯誤。

Here i got something i want to share with U and for me the 11th is very true

1、如果發簡訊給一個人，他一直不回，不要再發了。沒有這麼卑微的等待。

2、如果沒有人陪，學著一個人聽音樂看書寫點心情日記。這是個好習慣。

3、如果一個人很難過，找個角落或者在被子裏哭一下，不需要別人同情可憐，哭過之後一樣開心生活。

4、如果一個人開始怠慢你，請你離開他。不懂珍惜你的人不要為之不舍，更不必繼續付出你的友情或愛情，到頭來受傷的是自己，他人不會為之難過。

5、如果可以不抽煙，別抽。如果可以不喝酒，別喝。這是不愛惜自己身體的表現，如果只因一些人，那麼我們別傻了，愛你的人不會讓你難過的。

6、傷心的時候找個信任的朋友訴說一下，不要一個人默默承受，這只會會更添寂寞感與憂傷。

7、不開心的時候白天看看藍天晚上看看夜色，廣闊的天空自有屬於我們愛，寧可高傲的發黴不要低調的戀愛。跟自己說我是最好的，保持一份自信。

8、寧缺毋濫。不要因為寂寞隨手抓一個戀人，這對兩人都不公平，而且太缺乏責任感。找個知己不要是戀人。

寧缺毋濫（nìng quē wú làn) - 意思为:宁愿没有 也不要随便找一个充数 

9、記住你喜歡的人的生日，包括你的家人，當然，還有自己。生日沒有人送禮物也無所謂，你可以買精美的禮物，送給媽媽和爸爸。

10、閑下來的時候，放一段柔情音樂，翻閱幾頁好書，然後睡個懶覺，快哉。心情不好的時候，也可以睡一覺。

11、從現在開始，聰明一點，不要問別人想不想你？愛不愛你？若是要想你或者愛你自然會對你說，但是從你的嘴裏說出來，別人會很驕傲和不在乎你。

12、不要太在意一些人太在乎一些事，順其自然以最佳心態面對。因為這世界就是這麼不公平往往在最在乎的事物面前我們最沒有價值。

13、不要為了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃飯、哭泣、自閉、抑鬱，這些都是傻瓜才做的事。當然，偶爾傻一下有必要，人生不必時時聰明。

14、任何情況下，背後不說他人是非。如果你一定要說，說好話。多個朋友是好事，即使不是很要好的，總比因為自己說話不慎重不思考而多一個敵人好得多。

15、允許偶爾看肥皂劇，但不可成為依賴。允許偶爾披頭散髮，但要注重場合。允許偶爾罵髒話，但只限在老友面前或者獨自一人時，說過後記得要忘掉那些讓你難過的事。

16、一定要有幾個異性朋友，沒有非分之想，就是關鍵時候，能幫你出出主意的好友。

17、學會承受痛苦自己調整心態。有些話，適合爛在心裏，有些痛苦，適合無聲無息的忘記。當經歷過，你成長了，自己知道就好。很多改變，不需要你自己說，別人會看得到。

18、能不和人爭吵儘量避免。一個發怒的人是很恐怖的，會因控制不了情緒變成瘋子。忍耐然後思索問題的根源最後平靜心態解決它。

19、不管和誰有了矛盾和彆扭，解決的時間不要超過24小時。否則麻煩會更多。在可以接受的範圍內，先道歉。有時候做壞人不是件真的壞事。=D

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it`s Sunday

it`s 11.32 in the evening. half hour more will turn to 12 which is monday.
i didnt do anything yet i did study but i keep getting myself distracted with food and making fun of myself
knowing the exam is coming on the 1Dec but still cant get myself in the mood.
i have no idea what had happened to me.....
i have no idea why i went to the town to buy a biscuit while i dont have to.
i can just finish the Milo without it.....yet i went to town  and it`s raining out there ^^
guess i really trying good to distract myself.
i feel nothing about this exam.
though it`s the most important in the life.
so many disappointments have came up
those really making me sad and screwed me up!

i dont know how`s others are doing because i didnt sms them or call them
and i dont think i gonna to do it because i`m afraid of disturbing them,
they are good, not like me.
my phone has been staying silent for almost a month
no one call or sms.
Except i`m the one who telling the tips for the exam.

i hope they are doing good!
here i pray for u all.
wish u all the best, score with flying colours.

oh...what a shame. i`m still a crap!
Shame- Robbie williams & Garry.
I loving it

hmm

haha... finished 2 papers yet not feeling good. because i havent done my best. the first paper i think i got the confident but when it comes to the paper 1 i dont know i got the courage to finish or not. i quite require memory power. again this is saturday i`m still waiting for my interviewer to confirm something for me. i have dipped into movies and into my dream yesterday. i realise that all are just a dream. we cant do anything but except effort. yet, we are here, a place where much changes need to be done. i really want to be like grey`s anatomy . they are awesome. i failed the my physics. i really stupid! it`s too late to regret, and no one to be blamed.

dissappointed

haiz, thought got a fine job already can secure me de...but what the hell has just happened.
have planned alot of things and now really end up like what susan boyler.....i dreamed a dream.
all ruined....

sky is raining. guess it`s for me.

hihih

hi, i`m back again. hmm...been quite active lately in blogging....haha
been giving myself some timeout and figuring something seriously
i found out that, i was thinking too much,
who cares, people will care or love me or not!
it`s not a problem! btw...they dont cost a cent either.

finally, i found myself a goal. that i wanted to do all the time
i was distracted by many things.
and now i`m up for something really goona be something totally new for me
is......i want to take business and admin...and i want to get a MBA

come on...fail STPM doesnt kill you!
the government also wont give u a damn  also
take alternative!

Unfortunately, Life is very short. Don’t waste your time and try to make the most of every opportunity. Do what you want to do and enjoy life! - this is from Thomas Price!


oh god i love him very much! damn handsome and he got the height that i want!
he really inspire me a lot. he did or do....alot of things that he likes...like D-jing, basketball, football, graffiti, movies, ads...and many many more....and he is taking masters in Australia! he can, why not me?

what was it?

It was the middle of the night. And I cant sleep.
it was a silly thought that, I don’t even deserve a MISS
I`m just the ordinary person doing ordinary thing so do others
why I don’t deserve?
while the rest are better than me?
if comparing with the academic result. Yes they are but some

I know you are in stress.
do you know i`m also?
selfish is my first thought
you only said you are the one having stress.
so for you others like me don’t have to ?

After what I have done,
there are no ransom to be paid.

Move forward don’t care what they said,
you are living for yourself.
again not for others.

 I think I have The Neuropsychopharmacology of Personality Disorders.
Give me some Amphetamine ^^

Isnt that contradicts?

I think I just thought so much of nonsense la. Actually all are not connected but I just connect them .it`s just a selfish thinking of mine. Argh…. Feel so good now, because of that. What has past. Really gone. What to do reminiscence back something that make you feel bad? It has nothing to do isn’t it. your life wont get high unless it`s a perfect savory moment. Just keep going , leave the past behind. And you will be a better person.
人之所以会心累/矛盾..就是常常徘徊在坚持和放弃之间..举棋不定..生活中总会有一些值得我们记忆的东西..也有一些必须要放弃的东西..放弃与坚持..是每个人面对人生问题的一种态度...

cheer up 

是谁带来这段苦带甜的路程？

感谢，感谢你带来的欢喜与爱乐。的却在你的身边，一定不会少一丝的安全感。缘分？它的定义有什么？是一种人与人之间无形的连结，是某种必然存在的相遇的机会和可能。就是它。但，缘已淡。

誓言？

真心或假意?

我不懂得分辨

或为了事情变得不糟

所编出来的谎言？

是否来之真心我不懂得

我很疲倦

我不想再分辨。

太好笑了我，竟然等待着那一封不会到来的讯息。

分分秒秒都在看手机

午觉也睡不好，都是你

你因该也睡得很好吧？

无暇的小孩。

果然活泼天真

我呢？

眼神带有沧桑

臭老

也许都是所发生一切的事情吧

逼我不得不早熟

看你应该也是没看的吧

算了吧

小生小小的心声

没人能了解

也没人会

愿意

这一切，

都让我觉得很渺小

这对你，

也许只不过

是件小事

一点都不紧张。

我都看得出，

因为你是自私的。

没时间管我死活

我并不是好友，

是损友。

这看法我已看到

但没想到

你真的会是那么无知。

选着是你的，

不是我定的

你不为了我而活，

是为了你自己。

对你我也许就不够好吧

他们才是最好

我与你都没有什么共同点

都不打电动

但我却放不下，

只希望这一切不曾发生

就像以前，

不熟不生

那该都好？

Faith?

Does faith really exist? Yea. I believe and it has brought joys and sad to me. It has brought me to someone. It has come to me few years back and it has gone. And now it has come again and I believe it`s gonna end soon. Because I think it has ended. I told u that because I still loving you. I told u about it. what did u respond? Haha….kinda funny also. U seem like nothings. That doesn’t look like a friend. If I tell others, i`m sure not only they will sms me and showing me how to get rid of it. I can think, not cant. And I need someone to calm me badly. They will also pretty sure will come up to me and checking out my status. You just don’t. you just sit that badly and ignore to talk to me. Why i`m the one always come to u? not u come to me? How come u can go find xxx xxxxx and sit with him and chat but not me? Yes. I`m totally jealous about that. Thinking back what I have done to you. Did he? No! how come he can be treated like that without any effort ? while I didn’t get anything. Everytime going to canteen, you will call him. Not me. And I that bad? Today I saw u in the canteen sitting there alone and eat. Y don’t ask me? I talked to you. And you just ignore me. Afternoon, the curtain stuff. you have never been doing this before. Yes u can do it. why don’t just let me see whether u did the right thing or not then only continue? Letting me see doesn’t hurt you isn’t ?what if u broken the fabric? (I don’t care the fabric broken or what. What important is U. if something has happened due to reckless, can u still repair or not?)This not only can apply on that curtain it can apply to many things also.  YES IT DID THAT. SO? IT`S STILL ME!!!  I didn’t change. Everytime u will be going to canteen with xxx xxxxx without asking me.

Another really important to me. U asked me to come over during that kinda down period. And soon u stop asking me to come over already because u finally already used to be alone. But did u think of me? I also used to be alone. Then since then ever I need a company already. But by that time u don’t need me anymore. What kind of service is like that? If you need me also at the time u want to gather some information about the TT. I gave u what u need and told u what should u do. And finally service ended. You no longer need it anymore.

Yet not finish, can you stop bring ur mood to school? And using that sourpuss face ? that is ur problem. U keep it and solve it when u are not with friends. Or you can just tell someone that u trust. When u using that face facing everyone u know what have u done or not? U just created a atmosphere which is not nice. Maybe that ur style. I`m just saying. U can say im a mother fucker.

Secrets? Yes I want to know it badly. Y cant let me know? What does it about? Y not? Even threatening u with that u also don’t care. Guess u are getting far from me. U no longer care me.you would just let me be and do that again. Haiz. U just couldn’t understand . what should I do? When I told u that u don’t understand and u said u are a shit! Hello, can you be mature abit or not? Blaming yourself is not a solution ok. And i`m really not cool with that. No one could humiliate themselves.

Since everything so complicated, I don’t want to continue anymore. I`m feeling bad for that also. I`m too tired of doing the run and stay thing. I just want to settle down. I`m the one first to talk during complication. U don’t talk because u don’t want things go worse isn’t it.what do you think.i`m just waiting you.. U say no then i`ll stop. If u say yes then I would say lets continue.

Learnt a lesson I think

Next time please don’t eat something that has been in the kitchen for more than 5 hours. The one I ate is about 10 hrs. and it`s the curry with the coconut milk which is the essence of making you sick. And what a potluck, I got sick the next day. I thought might don’t want to waste those food in fact that my parents ask me out to dinner and I refused! The next morning I woke up with some pain in the abdominal, I thought might be want to go toilet or just got some wind inside. When I got up, woa woa woa……feel like want to puke. And whole body shaking cold……OMG I must get sick…in the split second I thought It just last for a while. Hell know that, it lasts till now….been few days. The fever gone and the purging stuff also gone now only left the super duper gastric.!!!! It attacks me almost every second….i have no idea what to do with it…I hope I can get better by tomorrow….this is what I always said to myself but everyday is the same…the gastric came when I get to sleep or when I woke up by it. haiz……and i`m facing a MEMORY LOST!!!! Hell not…… how am I gonna to exam??????