Faith?

Does faith really exist? Yea. I believe and it has brought joys and sad to me. It has brought me to someone. It has come to me few years back and it has gone. And now it has come again and I believe it`s gonna end soon. Because I think it has ended. I told u that because I still loving you. I told u about it. what did u respond? Haha….kinda funny also. U seem like nothings. That doesn’t look like a friend. If I tell others, i`m sure not only they will sms me and showing me how to get rid of it. I can think, not cant. And I need someone to calm me badly. They will also pretty sure will come up to me and checking out my status. You just don’t. you just sit that badly and ignore to talk to me. Why i`m the one always come to u? not u come to me? How come u can go find xxx xxxxx and sit with him and chat but not me? Yes. I`m totally jealous about that. Thinking back what I have done to you. Did he? No! how come he can be treated like that without any effort ? while I didn’t get anything. Everytime going to canteen, you will call him. Not me. And I that bad? Today I saw u in the canteen sitting there alone and eat. Y don’t ask me? I talked to you. And you just ignore me. Afternoon, the curtain stuff. you have never been doing this before. Yes u can do it. why don’t just let me see whether u did the right thing or not then only continue? Letting me see doesn’t hurt you isn’t ?what if u broken the fabric? (I don’t care the fabric broken or what. What important is U. if something has happened due to reckless, can u still repair or not?)This not only can apply on that curtain it can apply to many things also.  YES IT DID THAT. SO? IT`S STILL ME!!!  I didn’t change. Everytime u will be going to canteen with xxx xxxxx without asking me.

Another really important to me. U asked me to come over during that kinda down period. And soon u stop asking me to come over already because u finally already used to be alone. But did u think of me? I also used to be alone. Then since then ever I need a company already. But by that time u don’t need me anymore. What kind of service is like that? If you need me also at the time u want to gather some information about the TT. I gave u what u need and told u what should u do. And finally service ended. You no longer need it anymore.

Yet not finish, can you stop bring ur mood to school? And using that sourpuss face ? that is ur problem. U keep it and solve it when u are not with friends. Or you can just tell someone that u trust. When u using that face facing everyone u know what have u done or not? U just created a atmosphere which is not nice. Maybe that ur style. I`m just saying. U can say im a mother fucker.

Secrets? Yes I want to know it badly. Y cant let me know? What does it about? Y not? Even threatening u with that u also don’t care. Guess u are getting far from me. U no longer care me.you would just let me be and do that again. Haiz. U just couldn’t understand . what should I do? When I told u that u don’t understand and u said u are a shit! Hello, can you be mature abit or not? Blaming yourself is not a solution ok. And i`m really not cool with that. No one could humiliate themselves.

Since everything so complicated, I don’t want to continue anymore. I`m feeling bad for that also. I`m too tired of doing the run and stay thing. I just want to settle down. I`m the one first to talk during complication. U don’t talk because u don’t want things go worse isn’t it.what do you think.i`m just waiting you.. U say no then i`ll stop. If u say yes then I would say lets continue.